Friday, April 30, 2010

Possible fall!

I dared to step on the scale today. I know, I should have waited...but I haven't done the best this week and I wanted to see what kind of damage I've done. I went over my daily point allowance at least 3 days now...not by many, at max 5. So I know we have the weekly point allowance, but I always try to avoid using those. Monday I ate some ice-cream cake from Dairy Queen for my husband and his sisters b-day celebration, put me over by 4. Then Tuesday, I had 2 slices of regular pizza, put me over by 2. Wednesday after dinner I had a 100 cal pack of cookies and a cup of milk which put me over by 2. But last night I had 5 points remaining when I went to bed. So If I can do that tonight, Saturday and Sunday, surely I'll see at least 1 lb weight loss! I'll just drink LOTS of water. (Even though that is what I HAVE been doing this week...more than normal)

I hope all turns out great on Monday...or at least average! haha.. At this point I think I'd accept even a "no-gain" week!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

4/27/2010

Thought I'd share a few new YUMMY discoveries. I went to Subway over the weekend while I was at my moms to make a wiser dinner choice since she didn't feel like cooking. I had a turkey sub...ever since then, I've been looking at all the choices they have and today, I had a Sweet Oninon Chicken Teriyaki Salad. It was only 4 points, add 2 points for the extra sweet sauce, and 2 for the 4 crackers I ate. (normally I wouldn't do the crackers) So a VERY filling and extra yummy lunch only cost me 6 points. Considering I have only used 5 prior to that, I am doing great with 14 left for dinner and maybe dessert I'm ahead of the game.

8-9 years ago when I was in highschool, I ate subway everyday for lunch with a bag of baked lays. Monitering my portions for breakfast and dinner, I lost 20-30lbs! Of course that triggered my gaul-stone problem which lead to having my gaulbladder removed...then an additional 25lb weight loss. I got down to 135. This all happened in at the max 4 months! So I think that is why I get so easily frustrated with weight loss results. I expect to be able to lose like I did back then. I guess life has just passed me by so quickly. It seems like yesterday I was goofing around with my fellow graduates while we tried on our caps and gowns. I think back and I didnt have to excercise one time during that 4 months...and I lost right around 60lbs! Of course I AM heavier this time than I was back then. I think I started my last weight loss out at 190-195. So this time I just have to focus on the small numbers to feel successful!

I set my first mini-goal at 5lbs and blew it out of the water week one. But it took me till yesterday to reach my second mini-goal of 10lbs. Now my next mini-goal is 20lbs, then 40 lbs, then 60 lbs, then finally 80 lbs. At that point my husband and I have talked about trying to get pregnant again. I will probably try to stay on a maintenance program at home so that I don't gain unneccessary weight. Once I have the baby I will probably get back on the program to lose the baby weight possibly an additional and my final 15-20 lbs to reach 125-120.

I know I have stated my goal over and over again, but I feel like if I keep repeating it, I'll stay strong and see how much closer I am coming to my goal every week.

Monday, April 26, 2010

4th weigh-in 4/26/10

So I was a little nervous about my weigh in today. I was sure I'd gained another lb. BUT....to my surprise, I'd lost 2.4!!! That is a total of 10.4 lbs in 5 weeks.

No its not enough to blow your socks off technically, but considering for the last 4 years I have done nothing but gain weight, a 10lb weight loss is dramatic! There are some outfits I can already tell a slight difference in the way they fit! I am going to try to remember to wear the same clothes next week so that won't be a factor and I can tell what my weight loss actually is without clothing interfearing.

So I am completely re-energerized! haha. I feel like I am actually getting somewhere. Knowing that I am half way to my 1st goal is so exciting! (200lbs) And once I reach that goal, I know I will be able to reach my 2nd goal (180), then my 3rd (160) then finally my 4th (145). WOOOPEEEE!!!!

Do you want to hear the craziest part? I went over my points every single day! I only went over maybe 1 or 2 points, but still...the week before last, I stayed way below. I wasn't ever hungry, but that week I'd only lost 1 lb! So to go over every day and still lose more....confuses me quite a bit! I think this week I will try to continue with lots of water. I've drunk 33.8 oz so far....and working on my second!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

4/20/10

This week I am bound and determine to see a better weight loss! My goal is to drink at least 64 oz water each day.

That hopefully will help me lose at least 3 lbs! I know I can see that number next monday. Then I will do my best to excercise the following week. If I can stay at 3lbs each week for the following 7 weeks...I'll exceed my first 11 week goal! If I lose 3lbs for 7 weeks I'll be out of the 200's finally and down to 191!!! I will be satisfied if I can even get off this 20lbs!!! I just have to keep on top of things and each week improve. I know I can do it! I have to stay positive...no matter what.

Monday, April 19, 2010

3rd weigh-in 4/19/10

I did really good last week. I had a couple days where I went over maybe 2 or 3 points, but for the most part I had 5 or more points left over. This weekend I invited friends over Saturday and went to an Italian resturaunt on Sunday. I still managed to stay within my point allowance!!! So when I stepped onto the scale, I felt confident...then quickly my heart sunk!! I only lost 1.2lbs! That brings my total weight loss to 8lbs in 3 weeks! This is not going nearly as quick as I need!

My husband and I were talking last night about getting pregnant again. I told him I wanted to wait till I get down to 145 at least, that will give me time to make sure our daughter is potty trained too. However, at this rate it'll be well over a year before we can start trying to get pregnant again!

I'm not trying to sound discouraged, or BE discouraged, but man...I was really expecting 3-5 lbs this week! I can't really figure out what the issue is, this week I ate very well. Even though I'm not eating all my points...I'm not starving by any means. I just chose to eat free or low point foods such as apples, salad, and whole grains. I think I'm going to start wearing the same out fit to my weigh-ins every monday! Just because I KNOW the outfit I have on today is more than last week. I think I'm going to go home and step on the scale with several different outfits to see which weighs the least, and use it EVERY monday...

So I shall truck on! Keep pushing through the frustration. I was really hoping to reach my goal by Christmas 2010, but as the weeks pass, I feel like that goal is getting further and further away!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

4/15/10

Still so far so good! Tuesday I did allow myself to indulge at dinner time, maybe too much. After dinner at applebees (weight watchers menu) I still had 13 points left, so......I shared a Chocolate Chip Cookie Sundae with my dad. But other than that, Wednesday I had 7 points left at the end of the day, and today I'll have left-over points as well. I actually got stuck with 100 cal kettle corn and a banana for lunch. Not my favorite, but I didnt have time to go home for lunch and the food that I brought has half and half in it, and with out my Lactose pills....I cannot even think of eating dairy or I'll get sick! So, instead of going hungry I'm trying to satisfy myself a little at least.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

4/13/10

So yesterday was a very good day. I actually had 9 points remaining by the time I went to bed...and I wasn't hungry at all. I had a crunchy honey and oats bar and 14.5 oz canned peaches (in water) for breakfast/snack. For lunch I had a simple plain salad with fat free ceasar dressing (free lunch). Then for dinner I had a Smart One pizza and 2 pudding cups (fat free).

I only had to come and brag on myself because of such a terrible weigh in. Today I plan on eating pretty light as well. I had an english muffin with a lil butter for breakfast. I brought a small green apple and the same salad as yesterday for my lunch and snack today. For dinner tonight I am making Chili Dog Caserole from aimeesadventures.com I have 2 of her books at home already, but when I am planning to go to the store after work I like to get on there and http://www.angelfire.com/journal/wwrecipes/ These 2 websites provide tastey meals for me AND my husband to enjoy. Since my husband isn't dieting, I want him to enjoy his dinner and not complain. So most of these recipes taste just like an every day meal from before I started weight watchers. A couple nights a week I'll usually eat frozen dinner and he'll pick up something like chinese or fast food. Well thats my note for today.

Remember: If I can do it, so can YOU!

Monday, April 12, 2010

2nd weigh-in 4/12/10

I SOOO brought this on myself! I knew it was coming, but I did my best to stay optimistic. I traveled to my moms house on Friday after work with only my 8 month old. Normally my husband, Chris, would drive and I would get a well-needed nap. However, he had other plans and I had to make the drive and some-how manage to keep myself awake. How did I do that? First of all I was starving, secondly I was afraid of falling asleep. So I stopped at McDonalds to get a drink...which turned into a 3 pc chicken strip meal with a med order of fries. I did ok the rest of the weekend...then the trip back did even worse for me. I didn't have an excuse of eating to stay awake, cuz I had 5 bananas sitting beside me to keep me a wake. But I stopped at Taco Bell and got a Grilled Stuffed burrito!!! SHAME SHAME SHAME!!!
This morning I had to shower, but I made sure my hair was dry after my shower (normally if I shower in the morning, I just throw my wet hair up in a bun of some sort...since its past my knees, it takes forever to blow-dry), and I searched until I found the most light-weight outfit I had in my closet, then put it on. Don't really know if it helped or not, but finally....here....are....my....results:

+1 lb!!!! OUCH! Sue is our normal leader, but she wasn't there today, so we had a "substitute". She asked if there was anything that she could do to help me, or if I knew what I did wrong. I hung my head and guilt with a smerk, "NO....I know what I did wrong...I ate the wrong types of food". Now THIS week I have to make up for last week and I would like to lose 5 lbs. But instead of setting a number of lbs to lose, I am just going to do what I did the first week: Stick to my points, choose fruit and veggies when I have a craving...and most importantly (which was pointed out at the meeting) distract myself when I get a craving that accurs above my neck *not hunger*. I will not let this ONE lb gain discourage me and ruin my goal!

In the past thats exactly what I would have done. I lost 4 lbs a couple months ago, then I gained 2 back, then another 2, so I just gave up! Stupid, I know. But hey, my loss is more powerful than my gain!!! I have control of this! Talk to ya'll next week!

Monday, April 5, 2010

1st weigh-in 4/5/10

I was so nervous about today's weigh in. Last week Krispy Kreme doughnuts and a birthday cake were all brought to the office. I caved and ate a bite of cake probably 3 days in a row...and even ate a chocolate doughnut with sprinkles! On top of those terrible days...Easter Sunday we went to a friends house. She served apricot glazed ham, loaded scalloped potatoes, bacon-wrapped green bean bundles, rolls, and salad. I filled my plate with salad, 1 roll, 1 serving spoon full of potatoes, and I avoided the green bean bundles. I limited my breakfast and my dinner because of lunch. I even declined the cookie icecream dessert!
As I stepped onto the scale I almost felt sweat beading on my forehead. I placed one foot on, then then next. I closed my eyes and said a prayer. When I opened my eyes the scale said 212.8!!!!! I almost screamed! The lady that weighs everyone almost passed out I think! Her eyes bugged, and she said, "wow! you go girl". I had to rush back to work and couldn't stay for the meeting, so I immediately text my husband and called my mom.
This 7.8lbs loss brings me almost 1/2 way to my first 20lbs goal! I am so excited! I have reduced my 28 point allowance to 27. I want to make sure I lose at least 2lbs next week. That is a fair amount to me. If I lose more, I'll just be even more thrilled!

7.8lbs down, 67.20lbs left to go! That is this week! I'll post next monday on my new weight loss!

Weight Watchers Sign-up Week 3/29/10

At 5' 1", I weighed in today at 220.6lbs. No, I'm not pleased by any means with my weight. But unfortunately I did it all on my own.

In March 2006 when I met my husband, I was at 145lbs (that was a week before I turned 21). We were engaged 6 months later, which I had probably gained 5lbs. I started taking birth control in December 2006 for our April 2007 wedding. I had gained up to 165lbs by our wedding. I quit taking birth control in December 2007. In November 2008 I found out I was pregnant, which I weighed 210lbs. I'd gained 30lbs during pregnancy and lost 28lbs 2 weeks after our daughter was born.

I have always sacrificed and given all my time to others, not even thinking to care for myself. I have had several epiphanies...so I thought. Those moments of "I HAVE to do something NOW!", but yet I never got further than losing 4lbs, then gaining it back immediately. So on March 29, 2010, I looked in our account and found we had a little extra money that pay period! I rushed to the nearest Weight Watchers meeting that day and paid my $149 for 11 weeks.

My goal is to lose 75lbs. Once I reach 145, I will then decide if I want to lose an additional 20lbs. I want to learn to be healthy so that I can teach it to my children and prevent weight problems with them. I grew up over weight until my senior year of highschool where I lost from 190lbs to 130lbs. I don't want my children to have to face all the challenges that made my childhood so difficult. I am taking one week at a time and my goal is to lose 20 lbs each 10 week period.

This is my journey to encourage others and show how a little will-power can change your life forever!