to weigh-in or not to weigh-in?

Ok...so I weighed this morning when I got up...I KNEW this was going to be the case. The scale showed a 2.2 weight gain! AAARRRGGHHH! I know what happened...I lost my tracker last week sometime, and well I wasn't smart enough to just use regular paper! I just tried to track in my head...but I did a lot more things wrong too!
1. some one brought cookies into the office, I ate 4 one day then 4 another! (they were fresh bakery cookies YUUUM!)
2. I couldn't stop my munchies this weekend! I ate even when I wasn't hungry! back to my old habbits!
3. I didn't drink much water...I have been drinking 1 1/2 to 2 liters of water each day in the last few weeks.
4. and....embarrassing....but true: my stools haven't been as regular this week, plus I started my period.

I am debating on whether or not to go this week for my weigh-in. I already KNOW I have gained...and I am determined to kick my dieting up this week. Step up my game by drinking more water again, eating more fruits/vegetables instead of the 100 cal snacks and ww cakes like I have gotten in the habbit of. Also a huge factor: sticking to my portion control, eat ONLY my daily points (not over), eat ONLY when I am hungry, and this week I plan to get some excersise in.

My husband told me last night he wants me to help him to buckle down this week. He needs to lose 10 lbs to be able to join the guard (hes been wanting to for a while, but they changed the rules in April where he can no longer "tape out". He actually has to be with in his weight requirements not JUST the measurements). Therefore, motivating him will also keep me on track. I do have to get more food for snacking, and since we are on an EXTREMELY tight budget for the next couple weeks, I am not too sure how we can get all the food we need to get. I actually had groceries for the next weeks dinners planned out, but I think I'll put off buying for some recipes and get breakfast, snack, and lunch foods.

So my food plan this week is same whole grain/granola breakfast, fruit for for 1st snack, salad lunch, yogurt for 2nd snack, sensible dinner including vegetables, protien and possibly a starch. IF I feel hungry later, I may eat 1 100-cal pack for dessert, no later than 8:00pm. Then my goal is to excersise 30 minutes at least 2xs this week. I have to start some where right? I mean the excersise is my least favorite, but I know I don't want lose skin after it is all over with. So if I start a routine now...I can slowly progress.

I am just so frustrated with myself! After I ate those cookies one day, I kept saying, I'll do better and stay 2 points under Friday through Sunday. Then Friday my husband was working an overnight shift, and I was out of my ww fudge bars, so I decided to eat one of his snickers ice cream bars...then there was only one left in the box, so I figured I would eat that one, then stay under like 6 points on Saturday and Sunday. Well, Saturday I didn't do too badly, (I don't remember everything I ate though...still didnt write things down) and Sunday I would have been fine but then I got hungry, and I really didnt want left overs for the 4th time, and I didnt want to cook...I should have eaten a salad with a lil meat in it, but NOPE. I ate a couple chicken nuggets (6 to be exact), but I only had 1/3 cup of jullian boxed potatoes and 1/2 cup greens. I think I had 2 points left at the end of the night (I actually wrote it down)

I JUST CANT BELIEVE I WAS SO LAZY AND NEGLEGENT! If I continue on this path, I'll never reach my goal, and I'll gain all my weight back after I stop attending the meetings. I did talk to my leader and she said I could gladly have her spot once I reach my goal. She only took the position because no one else wanted it. So I thought that was cool. I'd love to be a leader at a weight watchers meetings! I would run it a lot differently than she does. Not too many people participate in the conversations at our meeting. There was one meeting 2 weeks ago that everyone seemed to be willing to share. And on top of that, my leader never recognizes the people that had successful weight losses. She sometimes asks who had a good week, or if anyone needs a sticker. But I didn't get a sticker when I lost my first 7.8 lbs (which would have been my 1st 5lb's), nor when I reached my 10% goal...She hasn't even sat down to tell me when we will go over my weight loss goal.

I think as a leader my goals are to get more participation, and recognize all those that lost weight. Maybe by saying "if you lost any weight at all raise your hand. Then when I go above the amount of weight you lost, put your hand down." Each week I'll have a box of weight watchers snacks to give the winner. Then I would have a sheet of paper to write down the names of those that had reached 10% and 20%, also those that had lost 5 lbs. that week. I think those little things will make the meetings more worth coming to...and also, I want to have a box that people can drop tips off and success or inspirational stories into, that we can read 2 or 3 each week. I may also give out my cell number so that if anyone is struggling and they need words of encouragement, they can always count on me if they don't have another support system....

So that is all for my long post for today. I may go ahead and go to the meeting today. there were a few new girls 2 weeks ago (at the good meeting haha) and they weren't there last week. in fact last week there were only bout 6 people there compared to the 10-12 normal. Bad weather always seems to make people stay indoors. The leader did say that a lot of people had weighed-in then left...but she said the new girls didnt show. hopefully they didnt quit already. :( We'll see. I'll update you later.