Different

So this morning, I put my tank top on and I noticed I looked thinner! Ok, so not alot, but when I look down my tummy doesn't stick out past my boobs any more! Which is fantastic cuz that means I don't look pregnant! I have 3 big events this summer. June 11th is a family reunion in TN. I haven't been there in 8 years! Last time I WAS there, I was skinny. So to go back and be this size is just unacceptable. My goal is to lose 25-30lbs total by then. The next event is another reunion (local) on July 30th. I want to reach 40lbs weight lost by then. And finally, that next weekend is my beautiful baby's 1st birthday. We are having a party and I don't want to be so short of breath by then. Since it is the following weekend after the 2nd reunion, I am not too worried about losing more than the 40...but if I can do that, My goal is to lose 20 more by Oct 12, and my last 20 by Christmas! Because of Thanksgiving, it will be hard to stay on track, but once I reach my 1st 20lb weight loss, I am going to start a light work-out. I will probably start by taking a walk around the block and gradually increasing my speed/distance and time. After my 2nd 20lbs I'll hopefully be jogging by then and make time to do some small weights to tighten up my arms!

I am just so pumped! Now that I see myself over half way to my 1st 20, I can actually see that 20 lbs gone! And I can see myself reaching the next 20 lbs, then the next and then the last! I have NEVER been able to picture myself losing ALL the weight I wanted. I always settled saying, "I'd be happy if I could reach 180!, or I'd be happy with a size 16!" But in reality, I wouldn't I mean if I'm going to work hard to get something I want...why not get WHAT I WANT! I would love to be a size 4, but because of my curvy shape, those sizes never fit me.

At 135, I was wearing size 8 tops and 10-12 bottoms. Most of my friends thougth I could easily fit into their siz 4's and 6's, and would offer to let me wear their clothes so we could go out four-wheeling in the mudd. But...I kept trying to explain, "honey, you don't have my hips and butt...or boobs!" I was a 34-B back then. I actually had to wear a prosthetic breast on one side since I was 16. I was a full B on one side, and a small A on the other. So when I turned 18, I had implants to even them out. The dr that did my surgery said in order for both breasts to feel the same, I would need to get implants on both sides...So I went up to a size C. With all the weight gain, while I was nursing, I wore 42-DD. Now I am down to a 40-D. I can't wait to get back to a 30-something! haha. Not to mention the victory I will feel once I get out of the plus-size section!

Shopping plus size for a woman that is 5 ft 1.5 in is very difficult! All the tops that fit in the tummy and breast, were falling off the shoulder and down to mid-thigh. The skirts that fit in the waist were WAY too long and the area that flared outward for the hips was down to my thigh which made me look so strange. I can't wait to be able to buy pencil skirts, fitted tops, and shop in thrift stores!