10th Weigh-in

I skipped the meeting again today, but I weighed at home. I lost 1.2lbs this week. I only have 2 more meetings before I run out of pre-paid meetings. Which at this point, financially I can't afford the meetings anymore. I think I've got a good enough kick-start to keep going on my own at this point.

I am traveling on vacation starting Friday through Monday, so I have already packed 100 cal snacks, and substuting thin bread rounds instead of hamburger buns for our bbq sandwiches this weekend, and I am also substituing Quaker rice-chips for potatoe salad. I'm bringing my granola breakfast bars for my normal breakfast. I'm going to do my best to get some excercise in this week. I SOOO badly want to get this last 4.6 lbs off so I can lose that 1st 20! I think if I really watch what I eat, and stay away from the pizza that I ate over the weekend, I'll do ok.

I have the faith in myself finally to be able to lose this weight! It is going to be a long process...I realize that, but I am willing to take a whole year if I have to. I want to be healthy and confident like I used to be! I want to enjoy my family more. Being 140 and a size 12 would be so fabulous! I woudln't have to shop in the specialty stores or go to a different section than some of my friends. I want so badly to not be embarassed to tell my family/inlaws what size I wear when they ask me around the holidays. I am just already so much happier than I was because I am proud of myself for once! I know that what I am doing is not because I HAVE to, or because someone else told me I needed to...I am doing it because I want to! There is such a difference! *SIGH* What a wonderful future I see ahead.